Damn On & Hiong CookIes

how wonderful

2009-06-05T02:24:00.003+08:00

"truth of matter is that we always noe the right thing to do, but the hard part is doing it."
i love this phrase, it make sense.

you noe i like, it jus irritates me when u make it sound lik it doesnt matter. everything also you say de wat. what m i suppose to do? u say all sorts of things when u r unhappy w me. so much for being nice n caring. it doesnt pay sia.

ya ya... men are cheap. so be it.

我受够了。

enough said.

moments in life

2009-04-26T11:39:00.002+08:00

there are moments in life that will always be rem. tough times. happy times.
well.. i believe i will remember many things that happen this 2 years.
being the cream of the crop, time is hard but bearable n enjoyable at times. there is this special bond among us, we work lik a big family.

tough time don't last, tough man do.

sad fact

2009-04-20T11:29:00.000+08:00

one sad of life. the world won't stop rotating because of you.

the truth

2009-04-05T11:05:00.003+08:00

the of the matter is we know the right thing to do, but the hard part is doing it.
but wat is the right thing? haha a vague question. how about makin things better?
well... u might have jus start or have been driftin away from being urself. at the end of the day is that wat u want? being the simple n lazy person i will always pick the easiest way out when things gets ugly. i can act as nth happen, but i m sure my boys know i m feeling sucky.

standin at 190cm 90kg 21+, i m a giant to many ppl. but sadly, i m like a boy in a big mans body.
more than 1/2 the time i m being run by the little boy in me. the big man wanna-be kid that needs lotsa attention.

qian xi ask me go back for nxt year open n coming bbaxn. so warrior ask me to play for bbaxn n coming open. was havin hard time decidin where to play. well. now i can give the ans, not playin for both side. i might have a ligament torn. WEEE!!! wonderful!! torn ligament == down grade == out of commando.

new record.... 2.4 at 11.14 mins, cant run n dun last. i m a joke man. can seriously 4get abt playin for safsa.

lets have a serving of emomomo pie. young dumb and full of cum.

is this the end?

2009-03-24T19:32:00.001+08:00

is this the end?

too many things happen AGAIN n i havent been updatin.

i m gettin TOO LAZY to blog, ask me directly.

THIS MIGHT BE THE LAST POST.....

happy niu year

2009-01-27T21:25:00.003+08:00

happy NIU year.

u r more than just a friend to me.
but again.. nv know what will happen.

not bad for ang baos, blah blah blah.... bookin in later. CRAP!!!

boring new year

2009-01-25T23:24:00.002+08:00

happy new year ppl, life is still a bitch.
no festive mood, it jus feel like another good long weekend. other then the goodies and ang bao, good extra cash.

jus cleared SOC on wed, blister w blood on both hands. din do ippt cause i cant really do sit up.
sianz

well.... everytime i full of thoughts but when i open my blog i will have a writers blocks. CRAP!

i jus wish to have a chance...

life is a bitch.

2009-01-11T16:16:00.002+08:00

its has beens sometime. previously, i had a hair crack ard my tail bone area, sustain from airborne, which screw my xmas mood n almost my "work" life. well... after so much the doc say i m good to do exercise, so i m back in action. others is jus crap, so much for "work".

PFFFT~~~

life is a bitch.

wth?

2008-12-08T17:26:00.001+08:00

punish not for my mistake, punish for being caught!
lol cdo indeed has a way of doing things.

news!

2008-12-05T19:48:00.002+08:00

update on my situation
SOL for 14 days, til 14th dec 2359hr.
1 of the lightest punishment, but still its a pain in the ass.

thanks for the concern ppl.

help?

2008-11-30T16:26:00.001+08:00

when u help people, do they appreciate?
when u help people who help u?

charged

2008-11-29T12:01:00.001+08:00

back from taiwan. shld b a relieve.
but i feel lik shit, i m shld b gettin charge for being AWOL.
why? thanks to partyin at PLUSH w the ppl.
they said they couldnt find mi. fine, its ok. i accept it.
now i still have to cover their ASS.

lets hope i have a ez verdict. \

everyone for themselves

few more days.

2008-11-23T12:27:00.002+08:00

last 5-6 days in taiwan. it feels lik i have been here for along yet not realli. spend my time either in field with dearest wife(gpmg/m16) n a bunch of dickies...

we slp in the field, mountain where cemetry is, haunted house and work at place full of cow dungs. lol.

days in taiwan

2008-11-13T18:50:00.002+08:00

4th day in taiwan.... basically boring. eat slp work eat slp work eat slp work.

don't undertstand why am i here in the first place. jus wait for R&R n back to sg.

wat a life?

2008-11-09T02:00:00.003+08:00

its has been a long time n life has been a routine ever since i belong to the SAF!!! basically in weapon course now, monday to friday i m in camp workin/smokin my way through hoppin i do not get extra from MASTER TAN(my course warrant).

just turn 21 last monday, my 21st party was so-so. i was running ard entertainin ppl n drink drank drunk, so was daddy and my god-dad. but still thanks to everyone, families, relatives, friends, bunks and minas. thanks for turnin up and the wonderful presents!

on leave for 3 1/2 days. flyin off to taiwan for ROC(training support for our leaders aka sergents) dunno wat to expect. i m jus another shit job warrior.

the only easy day was yesterday. (U.S navy SEAL)
everyone for themselves.

time flies...

2008-08-09T15:55:00.003+08:00

time flies...

unknowingly..... this is the 7 or 8 wks in SOTAC for BMT. jus came back marsilling field training, its so dirty, body-achin n tired but definately it has made mi stronger....

goin for tekong field camp on tue, sian 4 days no bathin sian... how to survive?
song arh...

but i will be stronger, have to stronger...
have to and will make it to commando!!

full of thoughts
so many happen in between lazy to repeat.
"open up ur n have a good look at the ppl ard u"

my road/way

2008-07-06T02:14:00.001+08:00

this is a road full of obstacle.... with no turnin back.

bookin in

2008-06-29T20:18:00.001+08:00

bookin in... boring...

din get to play ball... miss playin ball so much....

sianz... things plz dun get worse....

start of the nightmare.

book out....

2008-06-29T04:40:00.002+08:00

so much for 1st book out....
2day was my very first book out.... tot can have some time w her.
in the end i dun
but catchin up w my family n frds was good..

went meng's birthday....
went movie w the my platoon-mates.... doze off in between din realli enjoy the show

saw tian wei smokin wtf is wrong w him?
i quit n he picked it up? is he nuts?

i think i can understand wat alex is thinking now...

its painful...

but no choices....

this destiny....

lotsa thing/words/thoughts goin tru mi

not sure if any1 noes it.

lazy to say it out too...

booked out!!

2008-06-28T14:49:00.002+08:00

1st book out....
yesh.... everythings so wonderful...
bens n jerry taste lik heaven's water....

nth else is better then come out here.

trainin is killing/tearin mi apart

i miss everything out here...

sometimes i wish u can understand n feel wat i m goin thru....

11 hours more...

2008-06-12T21:09:00.002+08:00

11 hours to "for honor n glory."

haha actually dun feel so bad on the last day.

quite relieve actually...

growned up? or hecked?

dunno la

walk 1 step see 1 step...

1 day

2008-06-12T15:05:00.001+08:00

offically 1 day...

enlisting 2ml....
i will b missing every1 and my hair...
awww....

went zouk last nite...
woah got real tipsy....
quite sad when gil always tio tai ji i m not there.

so sry man.

2 days

2008-06-11T01:50:00.002+08:00

cant slp...
even though i m feeling lik crappy at the moment.

had dinner w my cousins(aka god-slibings)
stella couldnt make it coz she has to work.
coincidently, we all wear nike tops.
we are the nike family.
ate so many things,
round 1
bro(chicken chop), evon(FnC), hui n mi(sirloin steak) share(cheese fries)
round 2
bro(mince pork noodle, mi n hui(share 1 bowl of laksa)
round 3
some dim sum w fried chicken wings n cheese fries.
woah... can u handle it?

dunno wat to do/say.

3 more days

2008-06-10T14:32:00.004+08:00

countin down...
3 more days to enlistment.

still thinkin abt it...
inevitably i m sad....
somehow lik there is so many things wanna say,
but certain things is jus reduntant now...

it jus so dramatic.....
8 years ago....

1 day closer...

2008-06-09T16:27:00.002+08:00

1 day closer to enlistment....
packed my table and gettin my stuff rdy for enlistment.

another long day, feels lik shit now..

sucks....

2008-06-09T03:16:00.004+08:00

i suck being a captain i think.
i can dun feel like plyin for 2days game n jus let it go lik tt.
lost 20 odd points... wonderful!!!
my job is to bring up the team.... but wat was i doin
floatin ard? haha u suck as a captain, xiang.

i realli wanna have u by my side.
i noe i m not the kind of guy u will like .
i dunno wat u are thinkin
i realli dunno wat i m suppose to do now... tell mi pLZ!
there were so many words in my mind, i wanna say....
i swallow all the words, i realise there isnt any point sayin anymore.

take good care of urself.

vengence is sweet

2008-06-07T23:18:00.002+08:00

vengence is always sweet. repay rp for wad they did to mi previously at rp.
scorpios are petty, nv trife w a scorpio.

she came for my game 2day, somehow both of us feels v awkward. but tt's inevitable.
it cant b changed ba... i guess....
gave her the bracelet and the stars(which i think it look lik shit) i made.
dunno does she lik it not, but i guess it is not goin to make any different ba.
i jus hope things will b better for her ba....

i still like/love and miss her badly.

but it makes mi feel lik shit, when thing is bad.

things wun change anyway.

6 days... fcukin mood...

2008-06-07T12:55:00.003+08:00

i m going to stop smoking...

for whatever reason...

with foul mood... not realli foul, but jus dun realli feel lik toking.

lets see who is the unlucky 1 2nite. make it on the court would b better.

at the end of the day i noe u will still picked him. you dun have to say sorry, cause we don't know what each other is going through. there is no rite/wrong in love, no1 to pin point or blame on.

settled?

2008-06-07T05:31:00.002+08:00

i toked things out w her...

at the most unsuitable situation.

i think tt's the end for us....

nv did i regret for watever happened.

i realli do love/like with all i have.

but love cant b force,

all of us noe it. i jus have to let it go....

haiz...

i m still hopin she do come for my game tml/lata...

which i think its not gonna happen....

ZHI XIANG GROW UP!!!

7 days...

2008-06-06T03:02:00.003+08:00

offically 1 wk, 7 days, to commando.
sounds good.. but feels lik shit...
not lookin forward to any terms of disappear from society.

2day had my hair cut n family gathering...
i think i had a rather funny hair, look so boyish.
it wun make any diff once i enlist.
it will all b gone!!!
steamboat was good...
quite fun... drank booze... need more...

tell mi wat u r thinkin plz...
i do need to noe =)....

tellin mi thing straight is ezier for mi to accept.

是我想太多, 你总这样说

但你却没有真的心疼我.

how?

2008-06-05T03:09:00.001+08:00

quite a tiring day....
walked ard town w gary 2day to look for my stuff after collectin our transcript n cert

n

thankz to coach...

i m pissed n have to put my players aeroplane again...
call mi so kan chiong in the afternoon ask mi look for players
tell mi WRS when i alrdy reached n gathered every1... simi lai eh....

CARE FOR UR OWN PLAYERS 1st PLZ, ESP UR CAPTAIN(ME).

nvm....

ate at kovan sakae n went to watch "made of honor" w her after tt.
movie... so so la... time w her is more important.
after tt she cried suddenly when we were sittin down outside cathay.
i dunno y too... wish she will tell mi...
sometimes i realli dunno wat she is thinkin either.

but... i m enlistin soon... sianz...

8days more.

9 days b4 enlistment.

2008-06-04T01:32:00.003+08:00

9 days b4 enlistment....

oh god... i dun1 to enlist yet..

见过你的美

我还能爱谁

long time no blog

2008-06-03T23:08:00.003+08:00

jus came back from bangkok last tue nite...
so many things happen... in sg b4 bkk, over at bkk n back in sg.

lareina's "handbag" got cut n lost her wallet, partly my bad.
coz i spill lemon tea into her bag on the 1st dinner.
so she had to use the levis "bag".

i feel 幸福 when she is ice-ing my hand at bkk.
dun think there will b another chance

jus another EMO shit.

sort of quite a screw up at PL league.... need to do better...
anyway.. this wkend is the last 2 game b4 enlistment. doesnt realli matter anymore.

well... some other things bothers mi more.
goin commando in 10 days....
but its not about enlistment, something else tt's important to me.

dunno wat to do... yet dun feel lik doin... can/may i not enlist now?

m gettin paranoid... crazy sia... guy paranoid quite gay.

ARGH!!!! FUCK IT LA!!!! i dunno wat to blog liaoz....

i like this song.

人生不能从来,

往事就只能回味

nice song

2008-05-14T01:52:00.001+08:00

人生不能从来

2008-04-16T02:55:00.003+08:00

recently i watched andy lau's 3 kingdom movie, 三国之见龙卸甲.
i m readin 3 kingdoms story book! in chinese!
can u imagine?!?!
i m 1 who cant even stand readin more than 2 page is readin the book...
omg!
so in love with 曹操's phrase "宁叫我负天下人,不叫天下人负我". (dunno ask)

recent quite close w L. (ask if needed)
my sister say she will b v disappointed if i m w her.
i noe wat she mean. for mi to noe for u to find out.

somehow somewhere i noe she isnt the 1.
i oso noe i wun b able to b w her. y? no idea... jus another feeling
i dunno wat i m feelin now, need/want a company/mental relience.
but jus cant commit.

she is not replyin mi, so?
feel bad but not as bad as the previous times....

人生不能从来
watever is over is over.
i dun think there is any other way to save it.

mayb i have jus learned to let it b.

humans are selfish.
人不为己，天诛地灭

so?

2008-03-30T23:08:00.002+08:00

ytd was last game of div 2.....

so heres the result

Qx = qian xi

Qx vs :
Ang Mo Kio CSC (lost)
Siglap (lost)
Basketball Warriors (won)
Whye Nam (lost)
DOS Titans(won)
safsa(lost)

so Qx is 6th on the table, like last year.

sianz la dun feel lik doin anything

fuck it!

SIANZ AR!!

2008-03-18T00:16:00.002+08:00

damn sianz lehz i dunno wat is wrong man...

lost motivation for everything...

i dunno wat to do sia...

gym... muscle ache...

ball... no touch....

chuiz... wed game liaoz

sianz...

tried to tok to her...

things is still jus like tt..

not ready....

angry?

2008-03-10T01:55:00.002+08:00

i scold zhen vulgarities, somehow i feel tt i realli mean it when i scold him. as the captain, i realli dun lik the feelin of my buddie skippy training. he tells mi he is tired, ok... but wat abt the period i m not singapore? i noe PL is not a strong team... i pull u in, yet u dun come for training. wat will ppl gonna say?

so much for it...

2008-03-09T01:50:00.000+08:00

lost 2 games...

lose to amkcc and siglap....

so much for yi zhu

i got a feeling qian xi is goin to drop out from yi zhu....

this is bad...

but somehow i think yi zhu is not tt hard to play...

往事只能回味

2008-03-03T23:54:00.005+08:00

now my life has become a boring.....

or gym

or bball

or drink

or slp

or club

or coach

or chill

or dota....

BORING!!!!

qian xi is selected for Bank Of China's AD... LOL
which means i might have Ad Shoot on Wed!!! haha
AD SHOOT!!! MI!!! WAHAHA!!!

往事就只能回味

back from taiwan!!

2008-03-02T23:46:00.000+08:00

back from taiwan....

feel heavier... eat so much...

my relative always buy us good food.

shopping? so... so... sort of stuck in the condo...

regret not buyin shoe, tian lei's jersey, many others...

but spent alot of $$ liaoz...

went strawberry farm.... see wood scrupture....

MOST IMPORTANTLY watch SBL!!!

where i buy my taiwan beer collectables(incls. lin zhi jie's jersey)

not as exciting as i thought it will be...

swayness

2008-02-23T04:21:00.002+08:00

fuck man lost $170 at coach's place. smlj

suppose to return car for alvin(emilia's brother)

but wtf i park liao cannot start engine the other day.

-.-

total swaynessss.

my life is

gym, bball, gym, ball........

let go? how?

i wish i could....

hold on? how?

true?

2008-02-23T04:19:00.000+08:00

爱情里最可贵的不是包容, 最可贵的是懂得放手.

woots

2008-02-12T23:24:00.000+08:00

iwat a new year....

i find it quite bad at 1st...

lost $50.... in 2 gamble...

but i think i m selected for commandos...

lets pray....

but i wanna go out w W on vday...

lets hope she will go w mi

but i dun think things will b positive

pussify

2008-02-05T01:19:00.000+08:00

sianz lehz

now grad liaoz... got long holiday... but i feel damn sianz tell mi HOW????

sianz sia SIANZ!!!!!!!!!!!!

will b havin 2 class chalet.... sort of not realli lookin forward to it lehz....

class 23... so so la....

class 22.... hmm...

go oso sian

dun go oso sianz HOW?!?

knn lik gal PMS sia.....

V'day is coming... oh man.... i m single this year... oh fuck...

date W? feel lik yet pussify n scare.... haiz...

seriously no idea wat or how to do le man...

will b goin taiwan on 27/2.... guess wun b watchin SBL liaoz

there goes my taiwan beer - lin zhi jie, he shuo zheng....

CNY!!!

ang pao == $$

but i have to pay credit card bills sianz...

-.-

lets hope things get better after cny ba...

wait for you....

2008-02-04T21:11:00.000+08:00

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
And all my tears they
Keep runnin' down my face
Why did you turn away
[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie what you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy
(crazy)
How can you walk away
(When)
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying
Baby why can't we just, just start all over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough
[Chorus]
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
[Interlude]
So why does your pride make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie
What you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do
[Chorus]
Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
I'll be waiting...

shiok...

2008-01-30T02:53:00.000+08:00

can u imagine.....

i slpt from 11+pm monday nite to this morning 1+pm. SHIOK!!!

pack my room!! YEAH!!! after so long... the notes below my computer table is full of dust....
make mi itchy all over while cleanin...

went qx trainin, i think i played not bad... but i m not play center at the moment lehz... more to lik forward but i play not bad lehz HOW? change post? change play? dunno walk 1 step see 1 step...

dunno wats the plan tml nite... might b clubbin might b drinkin see how ba...

bad day..

2008-01-28T22:23:00.000+08:00

lousy last day....

i tot everything will b over once fwt paper is finish... BUT THING DUN ALWAYS GO WAT U THOUGHT OR PLANNED.

1st, reach sch, they tell mi got fyp. Mr raymond ho wants to see us for something abt fyp.
fine... see him then.
2nd, class politics. cant b bother to explain more... WUN SEE THEM ANYMORE.
3rd, hair cut din turn out as expectation.(but ok la not so bad either)
last (but the most sway.......), i got bird shitted on while on my way to wheellock from lido. i cross the tracffic light on the street of wheellock then then bird goesPIAK* on my left shoulder... WTF!!!

PISSED!

feels abit better after gym at california fitness. was my 1st day there shiok sia. good equipments, good environment w steam room n sauna.

SHIOK!

met jian ning for dinner after tt then go home slack.

tt's all

yoyoyo

2008-01-25T13:10:00.000+08:00

finally 1 not emo post after so many of them wahahahaha....

weee... cannot emo 24/7 rite? life still goin on......

the world wun stop rotatin coz of mi.

BUT.... i dunnoe the happy will last how long? hahahahahhahaha longer the better ba.

fuck the papers haha i screw broadband communication w/o much slp on wednesday nite.

hopefully overall pass.

last but not least is FWT.... another kuku paper hahaha by kuku lecturer.

but its mcq... CHEERS!

lata changkat changi sec will b havin a competition, time to b lik a man infront of the kids.

haha

big kid leading the kids

thank you coach lai jia qiang. now i finally understand y u always angry w us.

will nv 4get....

nice song

2008-01-23T14:19:00.000+08:00

stupid stupid

2008-01-23T02:26:00.000+08:00

MIA few wks, dun feel lik bloggin. spend time in sch, ball n clubbing.
has been goin to zouk almost every sat, lik a regular there liaoz sia... y? coz citibank as free entry to zouk til 28/2. when will i get my membership? I WILL LOVE TO HAVE ONE!
SOMEBODY PLZ GET MI 1!?!?!

recently,

lolx i m helping ming zhe for coaching, imagine those 16 17 boys calling mi COACH! wahaha when i m only lik 5 years older? haha still pretty not use to it. n now i finally under y my coach lai jia qiang got so angry during our matches. appreciate him many many now. sort pf regretted nv train hard under him.

ya noe this new gal called ying ying, jimmy's frd, she is a179cm tall model(damn tall la) n sweet looking. let see wat will happen between us... or may nth... zhun qi zhi ran.

somehow got closer w irene poh, coz clubbing. guys u shld see wat happen at zouk, damn funny.

irene ask wat happen btween mi n her, even i say n act fine. but still deep down i still wish i can b w her. will i have a chance? in the future? i dunno? dun dare to think... i miss those days.. when i noe after anything or everything i call her n she will listen to mi. will it ever happen again?

fuck shit i receive commando camp check up letter, need to report on 12/2. somehow i wanna try yet abit dun1 the toughness... wat kuku is this? commando == nightmare + good $$ n fittness. shall walk 1 step n see 1 step for this.

shall mug hard for my last exam in SP. after tt shall start my preparation for Div 2 for qian xi, at the same time north east watever league n then PL league. MORE GYM! START RUNNING! MORE BALL HANDLING N SHOOTING!

TOUGH TIME DUN LAST!
TOUGH MEN DOES!

ps: ask mi to find out wat happen at zouk!

残废

2008-01-03T00:47:00.000+08:00

feeling emo yet not

havin back, knee and headache. wat is wong w mi man? aching all over. need to get better n stronger asap. PL needs mi!

sianz 2day trainin played so so only i think can play better, n i need to do so.

still missing her, wanna see her. but... something is jus stopping mi. i m always afraid tt things will b awkward or weird when i see her.

we chatted last nite, after considerbly long if comparing to the past. i know i have to look ahead.

i wanna see her so badly.

yet somehow i m afraid even if she noes things might get worse. i jus cant let go.

也许时间是一种解药也是我现在正服下的毒药

happily new year 2008

2008-01-01T18:07:00.000+08:00

HAPPILY NEW YEAR 2008 everybody.

a new year, new plans, new dreams, new resolution.

but somethings jus nv changed.

gamble n steamboat at charlie's place last nite w the usual gang. when i saw her new year greetings, i felt happy even though i know its a mass sms thing. i still miss her lotsa, everyday.

somehow i still wanna ask her out for a date, movie n dinner. something is stoppin mi, not afraid tt she rejects. but somehow i jus scare the awkwardness when we met.

this is so not me, everybody tellin mi not to go deep in but i jus cant help it.

HAPPY NEW YEAR, may all ur dreams come true.

everything SHUN SHUN LI LI ( quote from lemon)

kuai gao zhang da(quote from meng)

xue ye jing bu(quote from charlie)

shen ti jian kang(quote from jian ning)

everyday pretty pretty (quote from jasmine)

go to poly ( quote from diana)

guys their "bro" bz, gals smile happily w 4 lips(quote from jing jing)

happily in love for everyone(quote from mi)

4get wat is reagan's resolution oppz.

PAIN!!!

2007-12-13T00:43:00.000+08:00

it has been weeks sincewe broke up, i cant help it but i m missin her still. thinkin of her n thing tt happen tgt. i realli wish we can be together, i wanna tell her "i love her, i miss her" but somehow i dun have the courage to do so. i wanna meet, but i got a feelin meetin up will awkward. for mi atl least.

now i m hafin a bad knee aching as long i try to exert strength to do something. i v scare this will b the end for my bball, although bball cant make u $$ but this is my passion, my love.

dunno how la... show mi some light of enlightenment. cant whine too much coz this will get irritating.

show mi some light plz... or at least let my knee heal

unable to savage

2007-11-27T03:41:00.000+08:00

i have broken up... haiz...

retribution?

2007-11-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

hai.... n i tot things will b better... i feelin lik shit now lor. i cooked ling yang for her, bring to tp w 2 big apples dunno how she feels oso. things got quite "sian" on the phone, lik nth much to tok. i have no idea how to make it better?

somehow i can feel tt she has an answer in her alrdy, i dunno m i over-sensitive. hope i m wrong, but usually i m nv wrong.

toked to my brothers, buddies n mummy. heard many advice, i realli would to fight for wat i 1. i realli wish she can give mi a chance to take care of her, not sentence mi death with lettin mi try. i dunno how can i do tt... jus try ba...

我要的,我站起来争取.

will or will not?

2007-11-19T01:40:00.000+08:00

finally heart to heart chat w bao bei... feels better by alot. frds, brothers n buddies thankz for listening to mi whining... i m glad u all are there..

now i can only wait for her ans, but i noe i can still traet her well. think tt's enuff for now ba...

even though how much i love n wanna take care of her, her smile is everything to mi now...

i think i will heed zhen's advices

i think now i will b able to and need to mug le ba...

wait n will cherish every moment i have with her. =)

cant smile w/o her...

2007-11-18T16:25:00.000+08:00

2day i m weak tired + sianz.......

last nite i went to find her, sort of tok things out n feed the urge to see her. is then then i noe tt is acty her parents pressuring her, she wun b happy to do something if she dun receive blessing from ppl. i jus dun wish to see her sad, her smile means everything to mi... i dun wanna pressurize her nor see her sad even though how much i love her n wanna take care of her.

she said "i dun wanna make a decision, cos i will disappoint 1 party(mi or her parents)" i rather i m disappoint.
but somehow i think she has an answer sub-conciously....

i feel so helpless now i noe something is not right where i cant do anything.

HOW??

does it mean i will get her attention if something happens to mi? but i dun1 this kind of attention.

nxt wk is MST n PL cup 2nd round. wonder will b she able to see at least 1 game? i wish she can b there support mi 1 last time. i dunno when will she b there to support mi again.

how i wish i could get drunk n dun think so much, but tt's not gonna solve the problem.

i love her... i wanna be w her.... but the more i wan her to be happy. smiling laughin n not tryin to get stuck in to work coz she dun1 to think

ARGHHHHHHHHHH..............!!!!!!!!!!

n i thought...

2007-11-17T12:21:00.000+08:00

for a moment i thought everything is fine... but wen we go out ytd she was lik sian sian de, i feel v bad seeing her lik tt oso. she was so bubbly, cheerful n full of laughters. but ytd... not any close. she is sick ytd, i wanna do something her. haiz... HOW??

i m goin crazy, realli goin crazy.
if feels damn xing ku.
i love her and wanna take care of her.

things plz get better for the both us, how can i do it?

i guess better le...

2007-11-14T23:51:00.000+08:00

phew.... for a moment i thought everything is so gonna end. when i saw her sms " dear, all the best for ur game" everythings feels so light.

tt's more than enuff le....

jus need her to b there....

can somebody realli tell mi how?

2007-11-14T00:53:00.000+08:00

HOW? I REALLI NEED TO NOE HOW?

i jus put the down the phone, it feel pretty weird. it was even weird for mi to call her baby liaoz.. sianz...

the way she tok abit change le, she dun call mi "dear" anymore, i dunno wat is she thinkin now...

somehow i wish i can realli meet her n tok to her, but i m afraid she might jus leave mi. i dun want her to leave mi. i realli feel damn xing ku when i alone, thoughts ran wild. if i din go out w my bros 2day, i think i would had been worse.

my bros tell mi to go meet a while after sch for dinner and send her home, i wish i could do so. but i m hafin labtest this wk n MST nxt wk. FYP no progress n andrew is freakin makin noise at mi. sch is not only FYP + i haf other commitments, but then again yong zhen is oso doin the
same thing jus tt i hafin problem w coping.

i think tt's y sacrifice is needed....

i need to see her soon.
or at least i need a chance from her....
i noe she definately will mind as i m her 1st bf.

haix...
all i noe is i need her...
some1 plz tell mi how?

how?

2007-11-13T11:27:00.000+08:00

i m feeling hollow, empty and weak(sick last nite)now, lik as if something has been taken away. i m not sure wat will happen. all i noe is i want her n i need, but i dunno wat else can i do.

i m alrdy missing even though i jus toked to her on the phone last nite.

i m jus useless

2007-11-12T22:12:00.001+08:00

too many things happen, need a long post to say it all out.

i got attached with W, happy with her.

but things happened, i think she quited bothered by wat i said. she told mi she is very affected by her parents words. her parents told her to think through if she wants this r/s.

she sound different jus now, no longer tokin. she tell mi prolly jus tt she is tired, but i can feel tt she has something in mind. i noe i had a messy past, but... haiz.. i realli dunno how to say.

i wanna b w her AND i want her to be happy.

no matter wat i want her to be cheerful n happy lik she always is.

boring wk...

2007-10-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

this friday is the selection for spinnoex, we dunno how much we hafta do sia. ar fuck la let it BURN!!!! haha

mon
was my lunar birthday mummy cooked mee sua n egg for mi. i had martell.

tue
class fyp class bazaar fyp.
bth, went mountbatten cc to play ball. qian xi ppl ask mi to give them my number, they will inform mi abt their trainin. dunno shld go ma.
i saw Pear at the bazaar, but we could not recongnise each other. haha if w/o nuditee i think i wun noe she is tt. PS sia.

wed
rot n rot.

2ml dunno who to survive.

piangz eh...

2007-10-21T00:02:00.000+08:00

somehow i m getting lazy to blog le, die liao lor... how i wish everything can auto update..

class is still very boring liaoz.... esp tue morning lecture, stupid ah neh... fyp is a killer. DIE!!! i m gonna die le.

tue
met W for tian tian steamboat, seriously i think it is gettin worse. xian de lai alot better la, waste $$!! BUT!! steamboat on W, ps sia. after tt we went Mount Faber, the ambience there so good for dating. got 2 couple there tt time, we lik abit xtra. tt nite i feel tt she is acty waitin for mi to ask the QN! i feel lik so, but dunno y i din. mayb i shld haf huh... after tt i piggy back W 1/2 way to the car. go w99 turn n go back.

wed
was told to come sch for EEE 50 aniversary event at 12, end up i late coz i went to city hall to eat. reach 12.30, but the best part is they say the event starts at 3.30.... WTF!!! nvm... go ikea resturant eat, share meatballs w ah bing. woo... the wings n balls is nice. after go back to sch for the event, it was so fuckin CROWDED. its lik the whole SEEE is there la, but SEEE haf lousy organizational skill sia... we were told tt tee n dinner is provided, but we did not get our tee(although the tee abit ugly) n ticket for dinner. wtf!! waste time. after tt meet jian n the grp to go eat at clementi market, listen to ning's stories n gave some advices. while we were listenin jackie n i was singin wen the is a word tt's link w a song title. haha so fun n funny. share n buy donut sze rong, we bought 12. i took 6 home n finish it, mummy say y i nv leave some for her. haha so gonna get fat after sch trainin stop.

thur
late for sch, class basically jus boring. haha skip voip lecture went to funan w zhen. he wanted to buy anti-virus/OS. he din buy anything so we went shoppin from
penisular plaza -> penisular hotel -> suntec -> queenstown. bought my water bottle n he bought ball id band.
actually the most imptly, it is my last game rep SP in IVP. oso meaning last time to see my bballmates. although this is the last game, we played well. we trash np 40 - 80 even though we played lik normal in a training, and we had shown great team spirit n bonding tt we nv show b4. everybody cheered n i mean everybody, 1st time i realli feel the team bonds n happy playin for SP. no words can describe tt feeling..
after tt geylang eat yong he n went to walk ard, walk over to see those prostitues. for a moment i realli wanted to haf 1. but in the end i din.

fri
late for sch, soon class ended ard 11+. KFC w the 22s, head of to jurong east swimming complex to gym n swim. on our way there i hurt sze rong hand, by accident as i dun1 her to alight at jurong east station. bo liao i noe. gym work on chest, i realise not the strong lik last time le but cna still do. saw gilbert there, found tt sch gym close. din finish my sets for bicep n tricep. swimmin was kinda boring, surprisingly i can dive quite far. almost 25m i will say. after its more chit chat n chill out in the pool. after tt eat at the nearby market n went home. mummy leavin for genting, i realise i can join her for the trip acty. but dun1 la all aunties dun like. recieve a call from emilia n li en ask mi go find them. wen i reach raffles then i noe W oso coming. go town w them to find yiwei, then eat long john n wait for jj. then we go en lounge to drink n chill out. after 4(emilia lien n yiwei) of us head to HK cafe at east coast rd. guess wat i saw jin hui, stanley n evon(my cousins n cousin in law) lolx they jkin abt the 1 guy 3 gals...
oh ya i almost fall aslp while on the phone, 1st time sia... luckily nv... i said i go slp 1st.

sat
wake up
steamboat, more meat plz.

sun
bball at AHS.
lunch at kallang airport w yong shen + his gf, chee hong n jian xiong, had beer at tt time.

tt's all. i think things will remains as memories no matter wat ba...

sian + emo again...

2007-10-13T05:00:00.000+08:00

MIA so long i oso dunno what to say....(wanna noe anything more plz tag or ask mi personally) was practically ballin n wastin time in and out of sch... not much progress in fyp. i think we are so gonna get screw n flunk

realli is so sianz...

2day is sort of my last game of IVP, played against TP. lost 3 points, din even score a single ball nor helped the team. worse still lost my mind during the game, got pissed off w bryant n i wanna kiao him.wat m i thinking, i might jus cause the whole team to lose if i got chances do tt.
previously, lose to nyp 9 points, can say i m the flop back then. 3 years of trainin in sp n i got no result. wat a waste.... feels kinda helpless but yet not regretting, coz i noe this is wat i will get from wat i put in. the only little bit i did was stay away from alcohol for 1 wk b4 competition sounds kinda silly oso. somehow i dun feel bonded in sp, but i haf made great frds(great guys). esp wen u are not coach's pet, i dunno how he think of mi oso. but since thur is the last game dun think will b seeing often, but i will still respect him as my coach(even he think i lousy or dun lik mi). bball has become a routine of my life rather than a passion. dunno how liaoz... zhen ask mi dun give up on it, but i dunnoe how? i dun wanna waste ppl's time at trainin or on the court, i wun improve neither can ppl ard mi.

i abit sad lehz... i think after this ivp i wun get to see the west ppl tt often le. lik qx oso dun get to see after he grad, we oso dun always go out n hang out. sad de lor. sounds pretty gay. haha

i use zhen's mec's to disturb a suzuki swift, i so goin to b a car frantic.

nowadays class oso abit sianz... startin to become lik aloner, watever i do i oso alone... guess every1 has their own way of doing stuff, no point insisting... 1 either change to meet their or 2 dun care n be urself. wearing mask is v tiring, be urself ba..

knn 1 wk i lose 2 water bottle, 1st bottle i spoil it at AHS. i throw to zhi hong n it hit his hip, then the cover spoil n he say hips dun lie... 2nd bottle i bring to NIE, after game i dunnoe where i put sia, cannot find.

progressing well with W, peeps wanna noe plz ask mi in person. haha

sometimes r/s(i think not only bgr ba) is lik an investment, ur input n output might not tele. sounds so technical, but ya i m an engineer. if investment fails, it will remains as memory.

EMO + 自闭..

wah swayness sia

2007-09-28T00:26:00.000+08:00

2day good day to slp sia...
raining whole day. W give mi morning call i pick up "orh ok" hang up go back slp(owe her a surprise for the morning call) super tired, coz last nite went phuture with huatiens, go there for ah li's(gettin married on sat) bachalor nite party. woo... now i noe wat's a player, ahaha. so crowded last nite lor... SIANZ...

oh ya saw sevene, cake n joycelyn. din tok to sevene n cake, i guess i m quite a sucky guy. shld haf at least said hi. said hi to joycelyn she is lik so stun to see mi... lolx

saw hai xing there too, w a bunch of gals. haha i told zhen then he is lik, wah lao y u nv tell mi earlier last nite. haha (personal joke)

ladies' nite at zouk is abit of sianess

gonna stop drinking until ivp over. get some staminah n power back.

swayness man
speakin of ivp, i sprain my ankle 2day. FUCK SIA, i was jus tellin wei yi abt how to take care the ankle, now my turn. knn. fuck tt goon who ran pass n bang my leg, i alrdy jump n score n won the game. end up hear ah guang say "u injuried my fault", ok la i respect him as my coach wun argue w him de. but damn sian lor IVP comin le then i sprain. pui! lik tt i nv play 2day's frdly w ITE central. i become the referree, and due to my lousy referreeness they play v rough. i wanna play lehz.

i wish it will recover soon. *wishing*

1st wk of sch

2007-09-26T16:27:00.000+08:00

1st wk of sch, practically is doing nth... no class no tutorial no practical. BUT!! i got an ah neh lecturer... he is takin mi for firewall technologies.. m i gonna fail it? haha not tt i m racist or wat..
but he cant teach, got the indian slang + problem in address the whole class SHITTY sia..

ivp coming + lotsa FYP to do... die la... got 4 reports for fyp die liaoz lor... haha no spinnovex == no A. spinnovex oso not confirm A. wtf...

suddenly my pals ard mi got EMOTIONAL PROBLEMS... zhen, lemon n most surprisingly jian ning...
i kinda feel sad for jian ning, kinda of wondering wat is tt michelle tryin to do. he seems so hurt n affected by her, guess he is so in love w her. kinda 1st time see him lik tt oso, gues i can only lend him a listening ba..

played frdly with eng tat last nite,we won, dunnoe i played well or not. i score lik 10 points, but i think my defence suckx. da kang qie mi lik so ezily, haiz... chuiz... i think sp need to work on defence man.

random random

2007-09-23T00:21:00.001+08:00

my life is full of bball
dunno i realli love the game
or i m used to it alrdy

great!

oh ya nowadays i kinda sensitive to speed
dunno y
90-100km/h on charlie's i m acty feel fear
wen i drivin on the road sort of helpless
too long din drive ba

saw an accident at lavender lsat nite
2 ladies
1 seriously injuried, dunnoe got die ma
1 lik had a bad fall
a motorist is helpin them
saw blood... luckily the gal wasnt facin us
after seeing it
it makes mi wanna drive slow n safely

after MIA

2007-09-22T01:55:00.000+08:00

Have MIA for 1 wk...
basically did nth much this wk....
time for quick bloggin

mon

went sch for fyp,
go comfort for medical claim w daddy
met Xiao Yu at nite for supper.
she stay cck, so i went to borrow cg's car
tot i will hafta give her a ride home.
end up i din haf to...
turn out to b a good thing

tue

went queensway w gary n shiyang
went trainin after tt
rush to kembangan w shiyang after trainin
cab to aranda country club for class chalet
practically on the phone tru out the nite
sms n call...
oh ya.. almost kiss jian ning tt nite while slping
its so squeeze on the bed..

wed

slack tru at chalet
play Wii
had fun playin Wii Boxing haha
but super tiring likd doing cardio
BBQ at nite..
drank, ate n joked...
phone, slp in the livin room (dun ask y)

thur

slack at chalet, played Wii
help prepare food for BBQ,
came back rest after BBQ.

friday

dota...
eat w charlie n jasmine
dota...
met meng, cehui n jj w charlie jasmine
to watch underdog
beagles sia...
haha

practically tt end's my last wk of hols
how wonderful.. haha

recieved my letter for NS medical appointment
gotta make my booking
sch starts means sooner to NS
how SIANZ...

2007-09-16T03:09:00.000+08:00

everything comes w a price...

the more u 1, the more u will hafta pay

some random though...

can say " no sacrifice no victory"

"life is fair"

感慨...

2007-09-11T01:51:00.000+08:00

感慨万端...

alrdy 3rd mth..
i had move on..
i got papers, games, training, work n fyps...
impossibly to ask mi drag on for the whole 3 mth?

when u rant, i gave u suggestion
but u jus tell mi that wat i said wun work...
n wen i say ur mense is comin, avoid cold drinks...
u jus wun listen...
"if i will listen, i would haf listen to my mother.."
wat a reply...
ok does it mean i dun care?

it sounded i haf wrong her...
i admit i din give in to her...

but....
ar fuck it la... its over..
dunno y i m whinnin over her entry oso
big tall and whiny is a bad combi

v mixed up

2007-09-09T01:21:00.000+08:00

mi n zhen problem solve,

w another teammate ok liaoz....
well...
i think... i m a fuck up player too...
i think i realli need to spend more time on ball

cut down booze
increase in gym
and trainin

oh ya... din noe oso got loner shuai ge de
abit sad though... abit no life...
mayb shall ask him out more

cb... W liao appear F...
i tot x comes after W? haha
CB la...
sounds lik a flirt sia...
but i dun think things will work out w F...
not tryin to... n wil not b fool ard w her...
abit not convincing come out from mi...
haha
even i myself dun believe it... LOLX

again...

2007-09-04T00:48:00.000+08:00

cb... now feelin damn sianz + disappointed

ppl nowadays jus can listen advices
y??? 难到听个意见都那么难吗?
i jus wanna say " open bigger ezier to play..."
i m jus tryin to make our play better

wat abt taiwan beer's 态度???
haiz...

does improvement in skill kills a good character?
can anybody tell mi?
good in skill doesn't mean in character

oso v disappointed w zhen, dunno how to tell him either
i = "encourage ur teammates, will b a better thing to do"
zhen = "nobody agreed w ur play jus now, play so badly.
if i m not ur frd, i would haf scolded u with shing choon"
wtf... even i lousy u dun haf to put ur sentence this way
damn disappointed hearin a brother sayin this..
tell hiM? keep to myself?
how to?

best is "act blur live longer"
less trouble, lesser problems...

feelin stoppin bball...
no move, no strength n no sense
how to play?? dunno...
damn sianz... play le 不开心....
y? dun realli noe either...
jus wanna play well individually n as a team...
shld i still play?

mmm...

2007-09-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

been eatin sub way for 2 days,
v grassy sia
haha

ytd try shi yang's tuscon...
big abit heavy...
overall ok but abit hard to drive

2day sub -> comex
so many ppl i noe at comex,
cb... i walk until dizzy ar.. seh

brought ram.
chill out at sushi tei w jian ning n his frd(ai ling)

oh ya i was stuck in the lift on my way
lolx abit ok but the lift shakin lik mad haha
scare not coz stuck coz... its shakin

sianz

2007-08-30T01:20:00.000+08:00

fuck got slight fever..
dunno y sia..
mayb coz of too many nites slp late...
too much heaty food. chuiz...

oh ya tt day at cineleisure,
i saw the last chevy camaro 2008 transformers
aka bumble bee.
i 1 the 2.8 grand set. n bumble bee..

too many things on the list
yet no $$ sian...

sick shall slp now

wat's wrong

2007-08-29T16:38:00.001+08:00

nowadays my appeitite lik not tt big le lehz..
rem last time i can eat alot alot of things..
dunno isit cause now is turnin point
or coz i ball lesser then appeitite not tt big...
dunno trainin start le then see how

EAT EAT EAT!!!

random

2007-08-29T01:03:00.000+08:00

sianz
got problem uploadin pics
lazy to solve

daddy is hospitalise
will b visitin him tml i think...
mummy is rather calm, after hearin it
dunno real or not...
mummy go temple n i m home gamin
power

so boring now...

pictures can be found on my frdster
more comin soon

2007-08-28T18:59:00.000+08:00

态度

kope from gary's blog nice video nice 态度

FUCK!!

2007-08-28T12:12:00.001+08:00

screw the fuckin classroom politics

多说多错,少说少错,不说也错.

2007-08-28T02:01:00.000+08:00

stupid slient nite...
1 emomomo pie...

2day nv gym much...
tired, no strength + sianz...

superwoman's company needed...

yawnz~~ hungry...
sianz... slp!!!!

i nv 对不起 u...

emomomo pie

2007-08-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

full of thoughts now....
tired, hungry + nua...
2ml gotta work 7-1.30.
fyp after tt, wanna slp acty.
gym w yilong at 6pm.
he was thin thin back then, now fit fit le.

4get when, i saw felicia chins blog.
nth special, v clitche,
a cam whore.
but then again tt's her blog,
she can put wat she wants ma ..

now i had change my view of blog le,
last time i think bloggin is acty wasting time.
but now... i think it is place where u can puke everything out.
dun care whether ppl see or feel after seeing.

so sianz
feel lik givin bball up, since sec 2 say until
dunno wen will gif up.
wanna see my peak at 25 is lik wat lehz
most likely after playin this year's game
will think i still wanna play anot...
not stoppin now... if i stop now i will flop in IVP...
meanin all the hardwork gone to waste.

zhen say my bball concept is wrong..
he gets pissed tokin to mi abt it...
isit? i not sure either... but i jus wanna do my stuff
i wanna try... but no strength lehz...

nowadays ppl dun phrase their words nicely...
zhen is 1 of them, sometimes he is realli damn harsh
sometimes irritatin.
not say i m petty, mostly bo chap de
but if u keep doin it ppl will get pissed de ma

another thing is they dun even listen to ppl's advice.
watever u cannot improve ur problem la.

C: dun nag mi, wen mi are on the court..
its jus an advice,
if u tink u are better than mi... dun listen lor
n u dun lik to hear it i dun say lor....
u fall n break is ur problem...
cant improve i oso dun care...

PL like CMI, players not comin for trainin
yet wen lose they blame each other. wtf sia
6 ppl train wat shit?
dunno y i still at PL,
coz i lousy? no more other teams le
coz of frdship? yz there
coz i m needed? the backbone of the team
wat's the use of playin wen u r not happy playin
ppl dun gif a damn abt mi n my team
mayb i shld jus leave...

fuck it la

2007-08-26T04:25:00.000+08:00

got free lunch from amanda,
at Vilage ( i love the knuckles).
u guys must b thinkin y rite?
it was a bet from last year.
the loser will treat the winner a meal
i won of coz lolx.
after tt was shopping,
shop for her shoes, her make up.
i shop for en's pressie,
get her anna sui dolly gal miniature collections
(wah lao i buy the fragance until my nose block ar..
smelly lik 10 over fragances... oso dunno wat she lik,
so i choose miniature),
forever frds teddy w the word E on it n a card.

then, went to kpo w jian ning n jackie.
3 guys n 1 gal gossiping LOLX!!!!
anyway... damn QIAO can..
estee's course-mate(michelle),
is acty my ex-neighbour....
lolx seen her a few times back then
but din tok to her b4.
she seems dao, i shy oso lolx...
nobody will believe i m shy lolx...
she will think lik i m some stalker or crazy ass
if i go tok to her for no reason haha..

meet polo n meng to en's chalet.
eat abit, then we lik become her workers lik tt
polo -> chef
mi -> tiong kok kia (china boy tt do all the chores)
meng -> BANGALA (u noe wat la hor)
her grp of gals -> PROs (public relation officer)

oh ya ya saw this hot chick, en's ex-classmate
phew~ she is realli hot
tall slender long hair pretty face *WOOTS*
my kind of gal!!!
but abit no figure lolx (as if i damn gd)
heard she is a model/show gal... omg...
some coversation w en and sophia
mi: jus now that red top gal v hot sia!
en: who?
sop: orh... crystal..
sop: she is not ur type la..
mi: Y???
en: oh she abit those bitchy kind...
mi: can tell... haha
she is hot...
u hear sizzlin sound wen water is dripped on her
lolx but her hair abit too long n dry
lik sadako lehz *partly scare*

drink session start late.
we had vodka 100(so hot, 55%) n chang beer
the feelin of it goin down ur body is so freakin hot
played up n down n indian poker until 3+
drink drank drunk...
sit chris car back..

I find W quite cute after last nite,
last time see her i think ok ok only.
lolx *pervert in action*

cooked

2007-08-23T23:12:00.000+08:00

i m so baked...
went to cut hair in the morning... now i freakin look lik some NSF... lolx
but i will b 1 nxt year.. y now? haha

2day sentosa v SHINY(sunny)!!!
dun feel lik playin, cant swim either.
play abit, dip abit, rot.........

bought 2 tees from top shop
purple n orange lolx
weird colors lolx

oh... appearantly
my knees not achin that much le
but still abit achin, ankle oso still does.
if nxt wk still not ok, must see doc le
tape too much oso not good

tellin ppl not to do wat they are doing?
lolx... excellent

EMOMOMO,
hot, red, baked, itching

chao bye bye

2007-08-21T23:21:00.000+08:00

tmd sia..
my right trapezius is lik aching sia..

dunno isit coz jus now play nv stretch haha...
plz dun try this at home!!!

if tml still achin cannot gym le!!

i think i m like ps-ing kit lor

suppose to go do the clear card but until now still haben

JIALAT!!!

PAPERS OVER!!!

2007-08-21T23:08:00.000+08:00

yesh papers all over,

SONG!!!

2day play bball SONG!!

althought abit retard,
staminah gettin worse,
legs gettin weak,
but SONG!!

exams over abit of hols means FYP!!
haha but my laptop down lehz
lolx

gg!!

last....

2007-08-20T23:15:00.000+08:00

TMD!!!
come back oso nv realli nap... WTF!!!

tml,
icd last paper...

2day abit screwed le....
i think icd oso jialat haha...
only noe html, css, n simple java script.
the rest.... hmm... w dora haha

i wanna club but nobody wanna go !!!!
FUCK LA CB!!!!
haha

waking up at 4am study somemore
AAHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

emomomo PIE!!!
emomomo PIE!!!
emomomo PIE!!!

ZZZzzzZZZ

sianz...

2007-08-20T16:32:00.000+08:00

slpt for 2 hours, then go for papers.
din haf breakfast,super hungry during papers.

paper seems lik goner, but shld b able to get 40 odd i guess
hopefully will pass this module.
dun mind gettin D -

screw the schools!
screw the papers!
screw the timings!
screw the society!

then again,
who ask u dun listen in class?

what i've done,
i face myself.
ya

EMo MoMo PiE!?!? haha heard it from pearlyn lolx

die die die!!

2007-08-19T22:53:00.000+08:00

2ml is the paper le...
i think i m prepare, shld pass..
but again... i feel lik nth is learn.
wtf!!!

so screwed!!

*STRESSED*

ken, bing, drew, gene, cheese n others i think are meetin at queesway mac at 3am.
sianz i wanna go, but i hafta pass boots to polo.

most imptly, I GOT NO TRANSPORT THERE!!!
cg dunno how to come my place, so nvm.
I WANT MY OWN CAR!!!!

back to reality.
all the best for ppl takin network management.
study...!!

KNN CCB

2007-08-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

screw the schools!
screw the papers!
screw the timings!
screw the society!

AH!!!

lan jiao papers

i wanna club, drink til drunk.
i play, basketball dota and everything...

sianz

AH!!!!!!

2007-08-18T03:55:00.000+08:00

eat slp dota dota dota slp study tv study tv study eat dota dota dota dota eat study dota dota study.. (acty still got msn in between) WTF!!!

oh gosh!!
i hafta stop dota for this period ~~~
i dun wanna repeat. damn it

study 2ml ba
tired le...

chances?
false hope?

slowly see...

i guess my phone bills is gonna blow...
daddy is so gonna YELL at me....

tml study b4 diana's treat ba.
dunno y meet at such weird place at weird timing?
since its her treat she call the shots...

kunz.... ZZZzzzZZZ

party boy!!

2007-08-17T02:49:00.001+08:00

god is a DJ
life is a dance floor
i m the PARTY BOY!!!

no remorse
not gonna change

i like being myself... yes...

it always end this way, so its not jus mi.

ya....

EXAMS!! TAKE COVER!!!

2007-08-17T02:06:00.000+08:00

eat, slp, gym, swim, work, study and dota....

DIE LA~~~ nxt mon n tue papers.. haben realli study...
DIE LA~~
dun wanna stay 1 more sem in SP, 1 sem == 1.2 k SGD....
maddness.
shall MUG lata in the afternoon... in the afternoon =D

cant wait for nxt tue to come.
meanin exam over YESH!!!
wed swimmin, thur sentosa, friday clubbin.
i asked so many ppl, hopefully they dun ps mi n i dun get drunk can le.

abit ache on the knee on n off...
abit lazy see doc lehz...
shall see how after exams..

tired lehz...

no need, no drive, no action
wen there is a need, there will be drive and action done.

tue faster come!! but until i finish muggin ....

anyway... thankz estee for helpin w the blog skin.

house of drunkards

2007-08-12T02:45:00.000+08:00

supposedly to go zouk ytd, jj suggest go rose finish his last bit of chivas. so after we get the chop on our hand, we went in to finish our compliementry drink...
2 tequila pops, 1/2 gin tonics

realise it was less than 1/2 a bottle. cb open another bottle. drink drink drink... the nxt moment i think i felt tt everything is spinning.... lolx

tok nonsense did rubbish.

still ask meng call estee to come fetch... lolx...

PUKED.... WUBLEAH!!!! puke puke

wen i reach home, i oso tok nonsense to her on phone.

sat
knn, my head lik got 1 ton weight on it. heavy + pain lik shit... wtf

i ask daddy how? he ask mi drink 1/2 bottle of beer. lik wtf.. haha

suppose to see doc, but nv coz i m hafin hang over. its sux

dota... went meng's place mahjong.

win $28, return here n there == nv win. lolx

i can feel it...

oucH!!

2007-08-09T22:57:00.000+08:00

late for fyp, tryin to use movin rubber. I~~ can gif u gatsby

go bugis w bing, kenny, soon peng, teck yong and gene for ba chor mi. had salad chicky rice and ba chor mee. i can eat!!

went suntec tower 5 to meet hong yuan, zhen, en ning and roy for 24 bball.
after 1st game yuan left for work. sort of hafta wait for him to come back.

roy is a nice guy, he tot mi quite a few things. how to acty tape my leg the tap savin way. n some bball stuff haha

overall, we make it to round 2 coz our groupin realli to weak. the other 2 group got div 1 team, national players and Ang MOhs. he is realli BIG, smell and zhun. but think again bball is a contact sport.

went home ard 3.30am to bath n nap, too stinky n sticky.

went back to suntec. dun realli feel lik playin le sia so sianz n tired.

ard 3.30pm we lost n out haha HOME!! yesh!!

man haf rigths to choose n do they 1.

aching all over. somebody rub for mi plz...
waist, shoulder, arms n leg...

finally...

2007-08-08T01:08:00.000+08:00

finally 2day,
sort of last of everything. great, long weekend. sad to say... i hafta do fyp yucks...

after csm,gym, eat, nwk mgt, then go VC see gene n cg cut hair.

cg is no longer durian more style, gene not longer long hairs mo hawk now(so butchy). haha

bought purple movin rubber. I~~ can gif u gatsby.

checked my red light thingy online. i think nv tio. prayin hard dun tio.

saw 10 grand honda civic. dunno isit real. so love it man.
nice powerful n cheap. best!

2ml play 24hr bball, dunno how to tong sia, gg.
GG tio quan ju's goner. haha lets pray.. haha

growin wisdom tooth now, aching sia. sort fo eat w 1 side only. sianz

no idea, is gonna b this? or jus a replacement?

tryin is 1 thing, gettin will b another.

time is near...

2007-08-07T00:51:00.001+08:00

ending of sem, but lik startin of work. wtf suddenly all the projects, presentation, report all due. seh... jus finish my tournament only lor. luckily my groupmates zai, if not i jialat.

i screw tnp paper 2day haha jialat.

i reach bugis le, mummy then tell mi she borrowed from kor kor le. lik SIANZ...

2ml presentation, GG. ppt no beefy enuff. hopefully boat reach pei auto straight.

leg not aching le. thank god. but who noes abt thur.

IS THIS THE END? lolx

long story

2007-08-05T03:11:00.000+08:00

where did i stop?

thur,
network le, met xiang for lunch then go class do icd. went meet jian ning the rest abt the chalet thingy. went town for my new shoe bag, my adidas is broke. went to 2 step for my hair, after home then pick novi. we went hooters after she put down her luggage, ate pasta. tasted normal for almost 20 bucks. home icd again.... crazy sia...

fri,
wake up icd and rot on bed, becca called while i was in the toilet. went sch for fyp, did some tutorial. basicaly screen thru n copy paste. went bugis mean jj n novi for lunch, beefy noodles n milk tea. acc novi for shoppin, omg gals can realli shop. after rush down to rp, m v late did abit of warm up then play le. sianz play lik shit. ah kuang say need to improve on my calf n thigh strength. took bus to dover, then went ms. eat asian kitchen w jj, had vietnamize beef fried rice. walked to fiona's workin place n haf a drink. we opened 2 bottles of martell(uncle's drink) i finished ard lik 3/4 of a bottle. i can realli drink sia... haha

sat,
went jj place, troubleshoot his comp. cant do anything, brought it to funan. went
town to meet novi. she kuku tell mi at paragon's LV, paragon NO LV!! she bought chanel wallet(RICH SEH!!) 1k wallet. had mos burger, then they shop again. lik omg. haha took neo print then went to parkway for kbox(town's full).

i m so broke... owe jj 250 n jackie 50
HOW!?!? need cash asap...

SHAG!!!

2007-08-02T00:53:00.000+08:00

2day skip sch... stay home do ICD... din expect a few hobbies will take the whole, esp comics section. 2ml go sch do gallery.

2day play against tp, mitcher n tattoo richard isnt there. we do haf lao lao n yz, come to think of it, we are more at lost.

we are playin better and better, but i din realli do well. tio referree aim, as usual i guess. 2 double foul, 1 pushing n 1 blocking wtf... 1st time tio double foul sia...

jialat sia my knee is aching lik siao, cant even sit cross-legged. worse to worse lata eat pain killer.

sianz la...

2007-08-01T00:27:00.000+08:00

2day.... went sch a for tnp... practically do nth, went gym. saw bert, cant do heavy weight 2day 2ml got game and no strength too coz din had anything b4 sch. wen after network management, feel so tired n had a nap. wake up le felt worse, feel weak, cold and aching all over. how to play 2ml?? mayb hafta tell ah kuang cant play coz sick.

2day daddy bought mix veggie rice for mi to eat for dinner. GOT PRAWN SIA!! POWER~
had panadol cold ard 11. did abit of ICD. hopefully will b well tml n can play.

"somehow i wan u beside me so much now. but u dun noe "

v something C will do..
if u dun say, even i noe i will still act blur.
act blur live longer.